When I create new programs, they always include me. My students know this (and sometimes they are surprised): I also work with them. We heal and move the energy together.
For me, this is fundamental and anchors us in the new paradigm. I’m not the teacher who has all the answers and says “do what I’ve already done,” teaching from the outside. I believe there is always something to move, heal, understand, or integrate, no matter what level of consciousness we’re at.
That’s why I’m involved in all the personal work I guide: in the vitalizing routines, in the group sessions, in the symphonies of integration of primitive reflexes, and in the cycles of “healing the inner child” that third-year students in the Training Program receive.
“I also transform and grow with every group I accompany.”
As an example, I want to share a revelatory personal process I experienced in 2019:
As every summer, I planned to guide a retreat. But, being short on time, I said to myself: “Cris, do something easy, something that doesn’t require too much organization or too much movement…” haha! Of course, it would have been easy to repeat something I already knew how to do, but no, I had to propose something new: “The Path of the Heart.” Little did I know how much it would involve me!
December was a month of internal preparation. The Path of the Heart, decision-making, crossroads, the authentic expression of our being, being aligned with our life mission… all of this was spinning within me.
At the same time, I had been carrying a pain in my left knee from an accident I had a few months prior, playing ping pong with my son. It was a pain I had already started to “normalize”… until I realized that if I wanted that pain to go away, I had to work on the knee. (And when I say work, I mean Deep Healing and neural therapy).
Working on the knee while preparing The Path of the Heart led me to remember something that had happened years before: at 18, I had a serious problem with that same knee.
In that other “life of mine,” which few know because I never talk about it, my world was the Jewish community of Córdoba. I was deeply involved: I participated in youth groups, I was a student and guide, I was passionate about dances, and I had strong opinions on politics and Jewish life. At 18, as expected, I went to Israel for a year, to live in Jerusalem and prepare to become a Hebrew teacher.
I don’t know why the pain in my knee occurred, I just remember going to the doctor, having X-rays done, being prescribed insoles, and being told: “You won’t be able to dance anymore, forget about dancing.”
“Forget about dancing!?”
Jewish circle dances were my life and my passion! My first approach to Judaism was through Israeli dances, and I asked my mother to change me to the Jewish school. I always felt that “I brought my family closer to Judaism” by bringing those values home.
At 18, I made my first great adult decision: to distance myself from God, from Judaism, and from everything related to it. Today, when I read this, I think: “If I can’t dance, I don’t want to know anything about it.” I rejected everything, and felt like everything had gone wrong for me. I went to Israel hoping to deepen those values, but I returned at odds with God and with Judaism. I fought with the Jewish religion. I fought with all religions. I fought with God. I went on to study science. I became agnostic.
You’ve probably heard this part already… I studied Chemical Sciences, completed the degree, and then traveled alone. I always managed on my own, with great pride. But, in the end, it’s not just about what we decide, but about the attitude with which we make those decisions.
“Every decision comes with a crossroads, and behind every crossroads, there’s an attitude.”
Although the scenario may change, the attitude behind each decision sometimes repeats itself over and over again. This pattern sends us to autopilot, to our defense mechanisms, and we believe we’re moving forward when, in reality, we always return to the same place. Does this sound familiar?
In my case, the attitude was: “I’ll manage on my own.” Alone in the physical and earthly sense. Alone in the divine and celestial sense.
And that pride got stuck in my knee.
Nearly twenty years passed with a “spirituality without God” until, thanks to the many inner child healing cycles I guided, I began to reconcile with God. I realized I had never been alone, that life had always supported me, and that God had been by my side, even when I didn’t see it.
2018 was a year that took me to my own limit. In time, energy, work, demands, income, and self-imposed pressure. In my therapeutic archery classes, the archetypal image of the Maiden appeared. My teacher said: “Cris, the provider is already there, the warrior is already there, let’s work on the image of the maiden. I’ll say something you probably haven’t heard in a while… ‘LEAN ON ME.’” It was a waterfall of tears. It was hard for me, but I let go.
Year 11. Year 2. The year to work on relationships, in Heaven and on Earth.
That’s how I closed that year: learning to lean on others, making space for others, and allowing myself to find balance between provider and maiden.
On a physical level, it was the year I chose to get braces to bring back a tooth that had shifted backward. I also had to accept the presence of another companion tooth in my mouth, “accepting the other to bite life together.” Coincidence? Hehehe… I doubt it.
The “other” on the physical plane is my husband, and on the divine plane, it is God.
With the pride released from my knee, reconciled with God, I realized that maybe I don’t need to manage on my own anymore. In fact, I’m learning that this stage I cannot do alone. My mission is big, and I’ll need help.
My husband laughs: “Cris, all this because of a little knee pain? Next time, play chess instead of ping pong!” I laugh too, that year and after almost 20 years, I danced again.
Since then, I reconciled with God, who returned to my life with strength, no longer through Judaism but through Kabbalah, which returned to my life in 2019, and this time it came to stay. The dances also returned, this time as circle dances from the world, and as everything is so perfect, I found a teacher who integrates Kabbalah’s wisdom into her dances, which she calls “body prayers.”
And as everything is so perfect, the understanding of Kabbalah and the Tree of Life filters into all my classes in the Facilitators’ Training Program. The Tree of Life is the map of all maps, and it helps explain and give meaning and perspective to the soul in everything we do in the Training: the importance of emotional work, balance in all dimensions of our being, and how we can co-create a fulfilling life connected to the soul’s purpose.
You won’t find this as official content in the training program, because I don’t consider myself prepared enough to present it that way. But it’s the great “extra bonus” of the three years of the Training.
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